What Am I Doing?
Do you ever become so consumed with self-doubt that everything seems pointless?
I might not post for awhile. (That last post was a “fuuu… I should post something” post, and I tried to put on a happy face. Did it work?)
Sorry to everyone whose emails and Youtube messages I’ve been ignoring too. It’s not personal, I’m just withdrawing from the world right now. I’m sure it’ll pass.
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meet you on the other side then, girl :)
A friend occasionally (and currently, as of writing this), switches off his journal page and puts a sign there saying, “Turn off your computer and read a book.” The blogosphere’s compulsion to post, post, post is a sign that it doesn’t stand for real freedom… If we can’t turn off now and then for as long as we damn well please, we’ve lost some freedom.
Enjoy!
I disagree! You’re only as good as the length of your last post divided by the amount of elapsed time between that one and the one before it! Not now, John, we’ve gotta get on with the film show! Time is money! Chop chop!
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More seriously, though, think of it like this, there’s “the internet” with a capital “i”, and then there’s the “metainternet”, which is basically the complete superset of connections between all souls, physical and non-physical. And if we do all our communicating over our little internet, we clog the tubes for the metainternet. So unclog it for a while and get in touch with “the others”. Whoever they are.
“turn off your computer and read a book” - love it.
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keith - exactly. That’s exactly what I’m trying to do. ‘the others’ are very quiet so far, though…
AWWW! I wish I was there to give you a BIG WARM SQUISHY HUG!
Thanks Mummy! It’s already passing though, so don’t be worried. There’s always this deeper unshakable confidence I feel. My ego just goes through spasms of uncertainty sometimes. But hey, so did Stevie Nicks, really bad, and she did alright. ;)
My Friend,
I too suffer from self doubt.
Often I too withdraw.
Take some time.
Don’t rush.
No pressure.
Breathe….
give yourself time to heal
just don’t forget to
Breathe…
Thanks Shane. It is good to remember that.
‘My ego just goes through spasms of uncertainty sometimes’
A bit simplistic I know…. But, from someone who does not know you from Adam and doesn’t understand uncertainty at the best of times…….You have a talent.
A big talent.
Use it, and lose the uncertainty. You’ve got the voice and the talent to make it work for you.
GO FOR IT!
P.S Where’s the cover of ‘Listen’?? ;)
Soz if I’m a wee bitty blunt Brooke, But ye’ve got a talent there and you should (and do) share it.
An ego is only as big as the talent behind it….you’ve got the talent, enjoy the ego. :)
Thanks Craig, that helps a lot. It’s weird having people responding to things I was thinking in a certain mood (which twisted my thinking around in weird ways, and from my normal state of knowing better), but at the same time it’s helpful, because when the mood returns (which I’m sure it will now and then) I just have to read these comments and I will be rescued. Y’all are my time-travellin’ heroes. :)
Brooke, I dunno which area this should be posted in, perhaps ye could create one for mindless drivel, I dunno. :)
Self doubt, innit??
‘There’s a feeling I get
When I look to the west,
And my spirit is crying for leaving.
In my thoughts I have seen
Rings of smoke through the trees,
And the voices of those who standing looking.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it really makes me wonder’
He may sound like he knows what he’s saying, but listen….does he really? Is that doubt, or great song writing?
‘And it’s whispered that soon
If we all call the tune
Then the piper will lead us to reason.
And a new day will dawn
For those who stand long
And the forests will echo with laughter.’
Sounds good, but is he sure about it??
Still not sure if he’s got some self doubt?
If there’s a bustle in your hedgerow
Don’t be alarmed now,
It’s just a spring clean for the May queen.
Yes, there are two paths you can go by
But in the long run
There’s still time to change the road you’re on.
And it makes me wonder.
I could go on……cos am a bit of a tit that way.lol
My point is this, One of the best songs ever written is consumed with self doubt…..if it’s good enough for a quartet of English oiks like Zep, then I’m damned sure a little bit of uncertainty aint a problem for you. :)
Yer fukin good, dont worry about it!! :)
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Hmmmm, It dont look too purdy, but if ye read what I say above it does make sense.
Luvs y’all.
Aint music the canarys cage? :) lol. Politer than the dogs bollox aint it??? ;)
yeah it happens…i am isolated from the world in my mind as well as in reality. someone will eventually pull me out, i hope.
Brian, best of luck to you with that. Don’t wait for somebody to pull you out though.. just get out. just get out and talk to people. That’s been helping me a surprising lot. My tendency is to isolate myself when I get all hopeless, and sometimes that can be good, but most times, it’s the last thing I need. I just had a totally pointless, unproductive jam with my some new friends. But it was great and I feel so refreshed and out of my head. The beer helped too. :)